By: Gloriana Nelms
You'll eventually learn that some days there's nothing you can do but let me go to that 24hour cafe at 2am without asking me if I'm O.K. (I am.)
I hope you understand that when I put on head phones and hide in the bathroom when I'm feeling overwhelmed, it's because there are some states of mind that just require fast, loud music and minor containment.
Remember how cute you thought it was that I made all of my decisions from my gut? I decided everything so quickly and stood by those choices. Yea, that will get annoying. You will quickly realize that we communicate, make decisions, and evaluate life very differently. You like to think about what you say; rehearse it even. Things are worded and re-worded 5 times in your head before they come out of your mouth. Your life is methodical; you are goal oriented and very successful in your endeavors. I on the other hand, "live by the seat of my pants" as one of your family members so eloquently put it. And it couldn't be more true. Literally nothing I say gets more than a quick once-over before it comes out of my mouth, if that. My friends, the books I read, the clothes I wear; every choice is made with heightened intention, but all thought is external and completely lacking any method you could relate to. You will, at times, get so very lost in my outrageous thought process and total lack of structure. You will get overwhelmed and confused, but you'll figure it out. You'll start to understand me, and I'll start to understand you. It will take time, and tears, and work; but we'll get through it all.
Things will get tough, but oh my dear, I will love you. I will set you free when you get stuck in your rules and methodically executed life goals. I promise to keep you up late binge-watching The Office, and I will never ask you to be someone you're not. I promise that when the skies grow dark and stormy, I'll be there. And we'll be ok with the rain drops in our lemonade.